first in a bit

I wish money was less important in this stupid society, that I could do everything I wanted to instead of sitting at home going crazy. I want to go get lattes and be with friends and enjoy wing nights and travel, not sit at home and wish i was there. O need work, I need money, and it's sort of bothering me. We're going to the bank next week so hopefully that will go well. I need to clean my room, after I'm finished this movie I'm going to shower and then do a major clean up! I actually like my room with things all over but it looks kind of silly, so I thought I'd clean it up and leave the weekend with a shining room! Or atleast a clean floor! I downloaded over six hundred songs in the past day, and I missed music a lot. I forgot to put the new top forty songs on, I think I'll do that later tonight when my sister has the rest of them ready. I need something here to settle my head. I will have enough money for the fall, I will be able to do anything I want to, I will be able to spend a little money on myself despite the fact that this entire trip is for me. I want to basically just enjoy my summer, not spend it fucking worrying if I can spare two fifty for a tea. I hate this. I fucking hate this. This weekend will be a good distraction. I am going to write when I'm there, up at the beach, we're bringing my computer so I'm excited about that. I'd like to drink some palm bays and take a break from the suburbs and the friggen rudeness of everybody here. I'm getting kind of sick of everybody's style here, I want to just go and sit in a shop or pub and talk, not having to dance or sit beside a loud speaker and yell. I don't want to have bows and whistles, I want to just be simple. Simplicity. I wish that more in my life and in my head would be cohesive with simplicity. My head tricks my head into thinking that I like simple things, but I like a little complexity once in a while. Man, I don't get anything anymore. I want to eat a huge roast beef dinner right now, I wish I could eat anything I wanted and not get fat...get more fat. hulk smash