it's toxic

My goal for tonight is to organise my computer desktop and to start downloading songs for my ipod, as I am assuming I will be able to upbload it in the near future, which excites me greatly. Finally I can enjoy music again just in my own ears, and I really want the new GI Joe Trailer Seven Nation Army remix, Call me what you want to call me I love classic rock, that's my feild of expertise and has been for a long time, but give me something with base "that I can feel in my bowels" as of last sunday at phils and I will fall madly in love. I like all music loud, all music good, and all music to be individualised to what I like. I'm not one of those people who likes just the music and forgets about the artists, but at the same time it's all a unique experience for everybody, so I just want my unique experience to be for me only, I don't really care what everyone elwse thinks. I hate moves like jagger, a lot. I think I need to read more online articles that aren't the new york times, is stumblupon a thing? or pinterest? I may l;ook into those tomorrow at work and see if I'd like them, because I've been finding all kinds of articles that I find interesting lately, and I've never been one to really sit down and enjoy things like that... So maybe that will go well, and maybe I'll get bored and play pottermore las usual. I am hungry, I want a bagel. I also have a craving for popcorn today, so that will become a thing most likely. I want to write things but nothing's coming lately. I may go on another writing rampage like last summer, but everything needs to be decluttered before then, and my money situation really needs to calm itself down. I think my head just needs to get some sleep for a bit, but that's sort of hard inside my head, so I may just skip that and go straight on to relaxation mode for may two four weekend, beach days and palm bays baby, buenos dias! Maybe I;'ll make a big change today, throw something out that should be thrown out or something, make a big decision, or just sort of jump for joy or laugh a lot, I need something to change, maybe I should buy some Coca Cola, like the old days, and drink it while reading a good book. I need to get myself away fromm the tv and out on the back deck, I wish I could go swimmig. Hakuna Matata baby, I need to stop the stressing and realise that it's summer, it is summer time now. It is time for me to just take off the STRESSEDJESSIE hat and put on the VACATIONPLANNINGJESSIE hat, because that's all I want to do all day, and I wish more people felt the way I did. don't stress about money, or friendship, love, anxiety, faily, living situations, think about the good things in life and what good things do for your wrinklesL decrease them, due to all the smiling. Operation no wrinkles: smile everyday, all day. I want to be with the kids now though, badly, I want to be able to hold their little hands and tell them they're beautiful, and laugh with them and teach them new things. The list of thigns to do with them continues to grow, and I cannot stop getting so excited to see them all again. I think there needs to be a youth group for me to be able to see them, to get my daily/weekly dose of humbleness. I take too much for granted as muych as I hate admitting it, I should give away all of my posessions. Meditative breaths, yogi breaths, in and ot, de-clutter my head please, I want to go home and change into a dress, might do that, I am young and free and happy, and am a being within myself, and love the people around me, everything isn't toxic, but beautiful. I can see that.